Good morning. It's been a while again since I have gotten on here. I apologize. I need to make myself do some easy stuff like this but It seems to hard at times. I continue to battle with the whole pain management issue which makes it tough to concentrate, participate, or go anywhere. I haven't stepped outside the house for a couple of days again. I tried going to Wal-Mart with Mom on Friday and get a couple of movies but it was uncomfortable. I have to admit, when my mom dropped me off at the door, all I could think about was beating that lady with the can to the electric wheelchair! I did! Then I realized the other one beside it was out of order...nope, I kept mine. Is that just horrible of me? That lady probably wanted to hurl my skinny butt out of the chair and make an example of me! I just took off (hehe). (I guess there can be competition in anything). Mom then walked in from parking the car with Gracie in her arms. She ran into Rach and Grace in the parking lot. What are the odds?
Belinda is planning a trip back here for a visit in the next few weeks. She is coming a lone, leaving her boyfriend at home. We'll miss Brent. He's a great guy. We'll have to call in the computer and rub it in while she's here in the summer and he's suffering in freezing New Zealand temperatures.
OK, here is the serious stuff I'm dragging my feet on...I signed up for hospice last week. It is time. It really is. Making the actual final decision was tough, but I am glad we made it now. What a blessing Hospice is. They are trying to get me more comfortable. So last night I tried out this new pressure mattress thing--couldn't get comfortable or sleep all night. So we are going try a waffle mattress next.
Well, I need to get a nap.
Love,
Becca
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17 comments:
Becca,
We all love you very much and we are here for you, whatever you need. I was thinking about you on my way to work this morning. I was thinking that I just need to stop by and see if you want to take a walk or sit outside and chat or something. I really do miss seeing your smiling face. I know what a blessing Hospice is since I work for Kosc. HHC & Hospice. I'm sure the hospice you are using is just as great and I know they will do everything possible to make you more comfortable. Try to get outside a little and enjoy that sunshine. It will do you good!!
Love ya,
Steph
It is so interesting to me to watch your comments on here- when your post is pretty positive I see the comments line up fast, but when you are down or talk about a difficult issue we are slower to respond. I do thank you for posting those hard things and giving us the opportunity to absorb them on our own timetable. I wish your timetable was more what you wanted. I know you're scared. I know you worry we will all think you are giving up. I think we need to see this as another transition. None of us are ready for transitions, even when they are expected- a new baby is always a blessing but oh what a trial they can be. I know that your current transition, though expected for everyone at some point in their lives, is extremely difficult for you and everyone around you. We love you and want to you to be comfortable, whatever that takes. Don't be afraid to tell us what you need, please. I know from experience how wonderful hospice can be for your family. I think in our situation they helped family and friends as much if not more than they helped the patient. Please let them do their job. I'm glad they are there to help you, since all the people who would like to be there won't fit in your house! We love you!
Just so you all know.
Becca is totally and unabashedly sold out to God and His will for her life. She has not one idol left in her life. There is nothing that stands between her and her Creator. Becca, I admire you more than you can imagine. You call me your mentor but I think I have learned more from you in the last year than you have learned from me.
I love you!
Amy
Becca-
It's so good to see your posts, I always look forward to them. You are such a brave and beautiful soul. I know that the decisions you and your family are making are difficult, but your faith and your courage are so amazing and inspiring. Glad you had a nice weekend and a great visit with your friend to look forward to!
Sending you and your family lots of love and prayers! Danette
Becca,
It is hard to imagine the lives you have touched throughout your life and specifically, through this blog. I have loved hearing about your love for Jesus. His light is shining so brightly through you. Thank you for taking the most difficult situation of your life and bringing glory to God. I am praying for peace for your entire family and the comfort that only He can provide.
God bless,
Amy, Ryan, and Noah Abell
Becca,
I have checked your blog every day for the last 3 years to see if anything new has been added but I have never left you a message. (I think that it is time) I pray and think about you a lot. You have been so strong through this whole thing. And I like it that you are still so competitive even at wal-mart! I hope and pray that God will comfort you.
with much love,
Kathie Bolinger Sites
Becca,
There is not a day that you and your family are not in our prayers. You have been such an angel to my girls and especially to me. I pray that God will continue to give you peace and comfort in your days ahead. Hospice will most definitely help you and your family. I have to completely agree with Jennifer's comments. Thank you Jennifer for writing what is so hard to express.
Becca we love you.
Angela Bays and girls
Jennifer said it beautifully. I pray that you have more good days and nights than bad ones.
Jody
Becca--I hope I am doing this correctly and haven't sent my message twice. I too have been following your blog and thinking of you often. I am glad that you are getting support from hospice and I know they will do all they can to control the pain. You are such a wonderful mother and woman. Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Love, Meg Pahmier
Becca,
I too read your blog faithfully and just am in awe of your strength and appreciate your continued humor despite all you have to endure. You make me smile a lot. I often try to put myself in your position and have never been able to wrap my head around it. Your faith is inspiring. We pray for you often, my kiddos know you well. I pray for your kiddos and Jade as well. May you find much comfort, peace and contentment with Hospice.
Love,
Neely
Well, Bec, I think all of the other comments pretty much take care of what I want to say. Here is a big cyber kiss and hug to you, the kids and Jade! I think of you ALL of the time and think of all the GREAT "advice" on life you have given me through the last few years! I want to call you and stop by, but I know you are in pain and want to just be content and quite so you can rest! I love you and miss your smiling face.....and Jade, you are the best husband any women could ever have to put up with an oniery cousin like my BECCA!
Love ya! Mindy
Becca,
My prayers have never once stopped since the day you called me wanting to help our family & Colton. You have changed my whole outlook on life, illness & the Lord. For that I will never Thank you enough. I have had to move to Tennesse to take custody of a troubled Nephew. Please know I continue to pray for you and your family and read your posts daily, I even read the older posts over and over. YOU ARE MY HERO! GOD BLESS.
PATTY EASTERDAY
Becca, you are always in our thoughts and prayers. Everything my mom has had to go through has been made easier because she knew that you had gone through similar things and had faced them so bravely. You have made a difference in so many lives. If you or Jade need anything, just let us know. Thinking of you, Jill Webber
I'm sitting here thinking about you making this hard decision and calling hospice. You have just been so brave through this whole "life" process. Gosh, you are so courageous! God is still working through you and around you.
Becca and family;
I send this with many thought of days gone by. About 20 years ago, actually. I met this neat girl on the basketball court at a camp on Lake Webster. We even were paired in a work group together making a campsite area...not what I thought it would be! She won my heart and broke my heart. I remember the runs through the cemetary late at night trying to catch the teepeer's and the long distance relationship that stood in our way. I always looked forward to getting a letter in the mail each day after school. My kids now think that is crazy, they want to know why I didn't just text! LOL
I know our lives went in different directions, but know that you made a difference in my life!!
May you stand on the promises of God!! With much admiration, love, and prayers...
Jason, Katrina, Austin and Allyson See
Becca, Amy and I are thinking / praying for you and your family.
I am dedicating my 50 mile ultra this October in Madison, Wis. to you. I'll be thinking about you.
Chad
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